Chapter 1

Why Me?

Ever asked yourself that? 
Wondered why everything about your life has been the way it is to this point? 
In all sincerity, I do hope so! 
How else can we ever come to any understandings about ourSelves and our lives?  When I get around to asking mySelf why I am in the positions I am in, I finally begin to get the message.  I finally come to an intelligent place of self survey.  My purpose, at that moment, becomes an accumulative result of all that I have ever been.  I am blessed to find what now can be very well applied in this present adventure we find ourselves experiencing today, right now.  What I mean is, that all the unpleasantries of my own making are now redeemable in full measure, as long as I am willing to accept full responsibility for all they have produced. 
And that, my friends, is the ominous truth surrounding all of our current affairs.  We can only fix what we acknowledge is our doing.  We, as a collective of human beings, alike in so many ways, can create whatever we choose, individually and collectively.  The less we allow our differences to control our opinions of each other, the more understanding can be reached.  Less conflict results in greater levels of understanding…and it is truly that simple.
Interestingly enough, though, we, as collectives have found enough differences to constitute amazing networks of institutions to fit our variables.  Of course, we create all of these variables as we wish…
knowing we are fully capable of choosing as we please…or can we?

If I just begin at the beginning of me, I can trace the factors that have shaped my entire Self. 
I am in the only position to do that…no one else has that kind of access to me!
So, it’s very plain to see who is responsible for you!
There is a most curious illness prevailing our world that causes people to “forget”…
Once you get that “dis+ease” you are no longer “responsible” for your Self.
we are spending our entire lifetimes re+membering
I, for ONE, am ready to actually do so!

So, truth is, we must make amends…mend our Selves.  Now that the dam+age is done, it is either re+paired, re+moved, re+placed, or re+turned.  I’m talking “trash” now…I’m saying we’ve created more than we can handle as individuals…we’ve become “exponentially” charged as “collections”.
Take this in whatever way you can perceive it, as it is a statement that concerns us on many levels of our Being.  We are prisoners of our own device…controlled much through our undocumented “vices”.  All of what may harm only ourselves…(we say), as we continue to damage our Selves.  Somehow, we think we are getting away with something…apparently we are under the impression that we are “alone” here.
And yet, “others” matter to us very much…the others in our lives that we come to “depend” on for one reason or an+other.  Even if we only need them to confirm our own sense of worth, we are bound and determined to remain, somehow, with each other, and not alone.
So, let’s be honest about some qualities we most commonly possess: the one that wants “companionship”…the one that wants to “share”…the one that wants “to love”.  These are the driving forces behind every human trait we possess.  Whether we acknowledge these basic human features as truly characteristic of our Selves and our expressions,
is a whole “other” ball game.
And life just might be something like a game, if we let ourselves play it that way.  The trick to playing this game “well” is to play it out with You controlling it.  That’s the trick.  We are fooling around with our lives as if we know already what we’ve been doing!
Sorry, that’s really not the case.  We’re just now getting around to understanding how we have managed to turn out this way.  We are finally struggling through our lessons and learning from this school of life what we came here to perfect:   
our Selves
That’s another part of the trick and the puzzle:  Perfection…Do we dare even “contemplate” such a magnificent “state”?  Usually not, and that is exactly why we are so very, very far from perfect.  Our only chance now, and always, is to strive for perfection…so what if we are always striving…we can actually achieve something that way!  Let us not discount perfection, please.  Our desire for this state of being is our desire for divinity.  It’s Christlike, if you please.
 It’s TRUELOVE & respect.

So now, as we sit on our collection of errors, we must firmly establish some level of commitment to our Selves and each other, our intentions to improve our current conditions, whatever they are.
And with this said, please do not start thinking about all the heavy world problems…you’ve got plenty of personal issues to address, and need not even concern yourself with the outside world for this ReView!
It started with You and it ends with You…one way or another, You are it!  You are what you are…
and You have had much to do about that. 
Yes, You and I, we are each Self made. 
Perhaps you think your family and friends made you? 
That somehow they got inside your head and your body and
took your soul and twisted it into what they want? ……………
I mean, it seems funny when I put it that way, even though it really does happen to some degree with all of us.  Look, we are here to help each other, and that is why I am bringing up these ideas…maybe we just need to laugh at our mistakes together…?  We are influenced…We are controlled…We are told the rules, and We usually try to follow them…We are well trained human beings.  And what’s wrong with that?  Why do we “need” so many rules and regulations anyway?  I do believe it may be our own unwillingness to address our lack of perfection.  I really don’t mean to make such a big deal out of this one quality, except to point out its disregard, and what actually constitutes a state of perfection for us as human beings.  I mean, when was the last time you actually even asked yourself if you’re getting any closer to perfection?

Enough of perfection for the time being, as we have real issues to address…real illness to heal.  We have been subjected to abuse after abuse, and yet we live!  That is about the most amazing fact of life we now have to be thankful about…that we can put ourselves through so much, and still, somehow, live through it!  Amazing!  I, for one, am one amazing example of what we can do to ourSelves, and still survive.  We are each representing our own sets of “outcomes” as a result of all we have ever subjected ourSelves to during our lifetimes. 
We’ve made it so far, why give up now?
I know many of us are already pretty sick and tired, pretty distressed, pretty beat up and worn out.  I know we are discouraged, damaged, maybe even delirious!  But, that’s just the point…the point we’re at…now, we can move on…

We can begin again
Each day offers new hope.  Each of us is a representative of this hope.  We walk around as the chief correspondents of this promise.  Or otherwise.  Despair has veered its ugly head, and it’s all too easy to allow it to affect us.  Yet, if we insist on what is best for each and every one of us, now, we’ll find ourselves firmly established in much better positions as we proceed from this point.  So why not begin again?  Why not “start over”?  Why give in and give your Self up?  Have you got something else to live for?  You know the answer to ending life…the “deadline”.  Are we just aiming to die gracefully or something?  Are we simply progressing steadily toward our deaths, hoping to make it comfortable for us when it arrives?  Is that what all the “doctoring” is about?  Is that why we “insure” everything, including our lives!
Ask yourSelf if security is worth the price of admission these days. 
Ask yourSelf what will ever bring you to a True level of Peace and comfort in this world we have jointly created. 
Ask yourSelf if money buys that. 
Ask a rich person if they are living in a world of peace and security;
someplace other than this world we all share. 
Who in this world is safe from harm?
Only those who are harmless to themSelves and all else.
That is an enormous, monumental, all encompassing prospect:
Absolute harmlessness.
Can it be?  Can we be?  Harmless?
Well…that’s it too, “well”.  Now we might begin to understand what the definition of “harmless” could be…
”well”.  In my humble opinion, it is very, very well to be harmless.

So, now we understand what it will actually take to find the comfort, security and
peace we are seeking…through our own capacities to be well. 
Now we do have our work cut out for us…
since being “well” is like a foreign land to us!
It’s like trying to find your way to someplace you’ve never really been before in your entire life!  I know you may think you’ve been fairly well from time to time, but when is the last time you knew you felt better than you have ever felt before in your entire life?  And, can you recall what being totally “well” could, should, and might actually feel like?  See, I’ve come to some pretty startling conclusions about this idea of being well.  And it all started a long time ago…because as far back as I can recall, I’ve been causing some level of harm to mySelf.  That’s right, right from the very beginning, before I was even born…but how can I possibly be responsible for myself before I was even born?  Somehow we must find ways to deal and heal with all of our mistreatments.  And even if I only start accounting for mySelf from the time I could say “yes” or “no”…still I’ve done plenty of harm to me. 
We are all in this boat together…the one going down Denial River.  Haven’t we found out by now that practically “nothing” is actually that “good” for us anymore?  We have to face the facts of our own creations and know that we’ve created wide assortments of all kinds of things that have ultimately harmed us, more than sustained or nurtured us in a natural, organic way. Yes, I’ve said it now:  ORGANIC
Why on earth is it so uncommon to BE and have that?
Maybe you aren’t fully aware of the disturbance made by inorganic substances within our bodies and organizations…maybe we are so systematically calculated through our continued abuses, that we’ve come to think of “those” as natural to our bodies and organizations. 
Let’s give this some real consideration so that we can find our way off of Denial River.

Right now, it is best to boil this all down to the
Least Common Denominator,
(LCD)
and that would be
YOU
What you do for You is the most important factor in your life, my life, and everybody else’s life as “well”. 
As much as we would all like to escape our joint relationship here on this planet, we cannot.
Like it or not, we’re all connected, and we each have our affects on one another,
no matter what!
And it really doesn’t matter if you can accept this or not, because the results will still be the same.  We are literally, figuratively, and in every way possible, stuck with each other, and the affect that has on the Whole of us ALL.
Maybe you are not ready to assume so much responsibility…and that’s quite understandable, there are almost 8 billion of us humans, and that’s just the humans…we are in a position to harm more than ourselves and humans…
we find ourselves equipped to hurt large or small, big or tall, beast, insect,
even heavenly bodies aren’t exempt from our possible abuses and manipulations. 
Yes, it’s deep, as deep as the ocean, and deeper…see, we’ve hurt our earth along with our Selves.  And now, the only logical and humane way of dealing with our ailments is to take our Selves apart as much as we must in an effort to “fix” up our mess…the mess we’ve made of our Selves is our first and foremost concern.  And that’s the only way to address the whole state of our downfall.
So, it’s easy now, because you only have yourSelf to concern yourSelf over…I mean, focus on fixing “you”. 
Don’t even concern yourSelf beyond that, since there’s plenty of you to work on. 
I mean, you’re enough, you matter enough…
You Do Count!
And that’s where we can all begin to really help each other now…a simple acknowledgement of each other’s “worth”…a worth based on qualities that amount to more than just money, possessions, ownership, control and all the things that try to “run our lives for us”. 
My involvement here has come to aid others in a quest to heal. I’ve been allowed to find my way through a lot of mistakes…painful repercussions of previous “harm” to mySelf.  And, all I can say to you directly is:  I’m Sorry, if I have harmed you in any way…my own personal actions have hurt me, and therefore, I must assume full responsibility for whatever has proceeded from this.  Who are we to say how many ways we affect others?  Some of us have undeniable impact on each other.  Even our thoughts and words, right into our actions have their affects…whatever they may turn out to be.  Therefore, all I can do now, is All I Can Do Now. 
So, I have finally sought the only way to help mySelf and others: 
Discover what’s good for me and make it part of me.
Incorporate Goodness
Figuring out what’s actually good for me is my job.  I must say, the information is out there.  My recommendation would be to keep it simple.  Just simplify everything.  Just keep everything as pure and natural as humanly possible.  Forget the “additives” and leave out the unnatural elements that may persist in things around you. 
Grow Your Own…Make Your Own…Be Your Own…
SELF
This road leads somewhere better for all of us.  Don’t neglect it or you any longer.  I don’t have to tell you the consequences of remaining ignorant in a world full of problems. 
The most amazing results will come all along the way,
as we learn how to “treat ourSelves better”…
better than we’ve ever treated ourSelves before…
with
LOVE
as

“ONE”
beautiful & everlasting

Body of GOD

How Alone I Am
I come before you a lonely and forgotten Soul.
Leaving the familiar to explore the unknown.
Searching deep within my Self to uncover my own Truth.
Faithfully foregoing what most others continue to embrace.
I am lonely.  I am innocent.  I am as Free as I can be.
I dare to break the rules leading me into new paradigms.
An existence based in LOVE and compassion fueled by Free Will and tolerance.
An embrace of the unknown, unexplored territories of consciousness.
I began this journey untold ages ago.
I am committed to this pledge:  “To BE, or not to BE”.
That is the quest of ALL ions…ALL eons.
Evolving Energy --- Spiritual Synergy --- Forever Family
Do I have the right to leave it ALL behind?
Can I assume a position of powerful presence and purpose?
I strive to master this living endowment through my spiritual essence.
I am Alone.  I am Honest.  I am Hearty.
Though I struggle --- I continue…Though I ache --- I persevere.
Though I pretend --- I relieve.
Meet me --- Greet me --- Treat me
 ~ Tenderly ~
Resolutely, I travel onward…inward.
Nurturing my meaningful mind….Nourishing my bountiful body.
Sanctifying my Spiritual Self.     ? How alone am I ?